“You’re not stuck. You’re just committed to certain patterns of behavior because they have helped you in the past. Now those behaviors have become more harmful than helpful. The reason why you can’t move forward is because you keep applying an old formula to a new level in your life. Change the formula to get a different result.” Emily Moroutian
I’ve been thinking and it has been five endless seasons of the same pattern of behavior.
There’s the calm, then the care, then the intense like, then the physical presence.
Then there’s the hurt, then the disregards, then the dislikes, then the miniscule arguments, then a few moments of quick hatred-that some how seems to fade away everytime and then there’s the end until we meet again.
And the funny thing is all the beginnings feel the same.
The laughter with the eyes closed. The telling to your inner being that this time will be different because you have control. The nos are hardly said and you think that this time the path will be really different- even though there are no future expectations.
But for some reason along the way you have lost yourself. Or maybe that is a little over dramatic and I should say you have lost control.
All you yearn for is the same start of the five endless seasons-the calm, the care, the intense like and the physical presence.
And the most insane of all is that you know the same pattern will yield the same result but you just can’t find it in you to change the formula or to break free and start a whole new cycle.
A part of you do not want the change because there is something incredible and inexplicable about the patterns of the five endless seasons.
A deja vu that you don’t mind experiencing as you look forward to a rendezvous for a sixth endless season.
So I guess- UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN!