There’s no greater pain than heartbreaks and vomiting- I legit think they are feelings of near death experience.
I have had great moments filled with happiness and laughter. Moments I thought would be infinite. I have had days when all I need is to see your texts, hear your voice, feel your presence and embrace your touch and then everything gets better.
There are days when I know in a world of billions of people you are the only one that is dependable and reliable. The only one that will trade it all to make my dreams come true. The only one who truly cares.
There are times when I am upset, sad, angry and lost and all I need is your ears and you give it all to me- even though they are as tiny as they can be.
And then came the horrors of human interactions. We tried, we failed, we tried again and fail.
There’s a sort of peace knowing that I have had you. To know what I want and to know what my expectations are.
There are some sadness knowing that we are not meant to be.
But I find strength in the infinite moments. Hoping that they will be once again. And I calm my anxiety, knowing that everything is fated and what is meant to be will be.
In this moment all I can say is that I have loved and lost.