When I look at you I completely know what we have.
But there is just this feeling inside that I can’t seem to find- it’s there but it is also very hollow.
Maybe they are attached to the things I wish for:
- your support in every little adventure
- your understanding
- your selflessness
- your interests in all things trivial.
There is just this emptiness inside me that is riddled with doubts, confusion, detachment and little to no expectations.
Some people say communication is the key but what is the point to communicate if things will be the same?
In good times the feeling is different, the void disappears and happiness takes over.
But like everything in this god-forsaken world, that feeling is also temporary.
I can feel the happiness ascending and then the void takes over.
Not gonna lie it keeps me up at nights, it makes me surly in the day time and overall I walk around with a head filled with uncertainty.
I can’t stop thinking about this void inside.
I cannot really pinpoint why I put myself through this.
Why do we always try to hold on to things that have done their time?
Given my current situation, I really cannot provide this answer.
But hopefully there will be a silver lining.